Re: in search of a handgun
IMHO, stick with something compact....and stick with some calibers that will have some serious stopping power. The only two that I would consider would be the 45acp, or the 40S&W.
Now, with those caliber parameters and staying with a compact gun, your going to pay a few bucks for a gun like that. OTOH, that will more than likely be a quality gun that will last you a lifetime.
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