I QUIT....a summary of my life!
Call it a mid-life crisis, an epiphany, a long-time desire or whatever you want! This past spring and summer I intended to make a change or two in my life pertaining to my health and fitness. This all came to be after years of doing a lot of research and thinking and planning, but never taking much, if any, action. So here it is in a nutshell, my life story:
From the time I can remember I've always been 'bigger' than everyone else....not tall, fat. My clothes were 'husky' growing up. I was active all the time, but I can eat...a lot, and i certainly did. In my youth I was involved in baseball from Tee Ball through HS ball but no other organized sports. I lived on my bike all summer long and as long as the weather permitted I was riding somewhere. I was still fat, but I wasn't huge and wasn't a couch potato. I still ate too much and not the best things.
I graduated HS and went to college. Those few years saw my activity level drop dramatically and the pounds piled on. I started college weighing around 225lbs....ended closer to 270lbs. I had a job lined up before I even graduated and started a week after the close of school. My job, that I still hold today, plants me in front of a computer 8+ hours 5 days a week....just as it has for the last 13+ years! Well, I continued to eat poorly, not exercise and consequently sell to a high of 335lbs.
Over the course of many years I've abused alcohol, smoked, eaten poorly, not exercised, and generally ignored my health/body. I've dieted sporadically over the years and lost as much as 80lbs, but I can't sustain a diet that doesn't involve foods that I love and thusly gain it all back....and then some. This past spring I decided with a family history of high blood pressure, diabetes, heart attacks, stroke, high cholesterol, heart disease, cancer, et al. that I need to get in better shape and take care of myself for my family's sake....and of course for my own.
Our 10 year anniversary was 7/13/12 and my wife and I had decided to go on a little vacation, leave the kids with her parents for a long weekend, spend some time having a good time and then afterwards we would, as a family, get healthy. We didn't do much in the way of 'healthy' prior and were excited to go on our vacation. Then it happened:
On 7/9/12 my mother came home from work to find my dad dead on the floor....a massive heart attack killed my diabetic, obese, inactive father at the ripe old age of 60! Three ours later my obese, inactive mother had a stroke at age 59!
We never got that vacation. The past six months have been spent running back and forth from Warren to Erie every other day to hospitals, rehabing my mom, fixing their financial messes, doing mountains of paperwork....in general NOT doing anything I had planned for the latter half of 2012. My mom is recovering. Still has a ways to go and probably will never be 100%, but she'll be able to live on her own. She's probably going to have to go onto disability and she'll need some help keeping up her house.
Around Christmas time we finally got around to joining a gym that we had two free 6 month memberships for. I've quit smoking, drastically reduced(maybe even eliminated) my alcohol consumption, started eating better foods and less food overall. We go to the gym 3-5 days a week and we're both feeling better in just a week so far. I know that it's early in the process, but I think that's part of the problem I've always had....it IS a process, it's not fast, there's no quick fix and it requires effort. Quit frankly, I don't want to die when I'm 60 or have a stroke or cancer. While I can't guarantee those things won't happen I sure can try to minimize those risks! I've got two young boys that need a father. A wife who deserves not to have to deal with the consequences of my indiscretions. A family to maintain in this crazy world.
I don't want to be diabetic. I don't want to have high cholesterol. I don't want high blood pressure(though I have it now!). I don't want to get cancer. I don't want to have a heart attack. I don't want to have a stroke. Being MORBIDLY OBESE puts me at high risk for all of those things on its own....throw in the family history and it's pretty much a guarantee. I can control at least one side of that equation so I will!
I QUIT! I quit abusing my body. I quit overeating. I quit filling my lungs with smoke. I quit sitting around doing nothing. I quit making excuses for the shape I'm in.
You really under estimated the ramifications of the boondoggle you have just perpetrated!