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Join Date: Jul 2009
Location: Da South Central
I have been battling this feeling i get for a very long time. It is not constant, in fact i was "myself" for over a year before the episode i am experiencing now. I feel trapped inside a cloud where i cant think clearly, and just overall dont feel like myself. Ive missed some work, usually using my vacation to sit at home and cry from sadness and frustration. Doctors are always asking to find what my triggers are, but i cant find any. I love my life, my wife, my son, my job, (which i cant afford to lose.) I love fishing and hunting, but when i get this feeling it overcomes all others with sadness. I just want to be myself. I am so sorry for my wife and others who have to step in and take care of my boy, when i dont feel fit to take care of my self. Everything feels so much harder to do. Im terrified i wont get better.
I stopped taking my medication last fall, and the dr was ok with that, saying if in a few months, I dont have any symptoms, i can be discharged entirely. Now i feel worse than ever and hope i can get better and back to work to care for my family. I am not writing for pity, but to help others understand.
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